Android and IOS

So, I'm enjoying seeing the new android phones coming out of Barcelona this week, very cool.  I'm just hoping they don't get out of control when it comes to the screen size thing.  My Bionic, to me, is just a bit TOO big.  I felt the Nexus S was the best, at 4....

I also heard that Apple may only sell 16gb ipad 3's from now on, because, of course they want EVERYTHING to go to the cloud....  Well, I'm sorry, until The Wireless Companies, Verizon/AT&T/Spring/TMobile get a friggin CLUE that 2gb of data for 30 bucks is STEALING, I won't even touch it.

I will stick to my android devices, with the very cool little microSD slot on the side, so I can put in my little 32gb card.  And move that card to my new device.  And the next one....  :)  I will probably never be a CLOUD person.  I like my data close to me....

Grand old time at work today, one of the servers is ready to completely explode....  Probably better do something about that, and QUICK...  :)

Hello sunday....

Cold and sunny day today, spent most of it in bed, giving tyler the living room.

Great day to watch bones reruns. :)

Cleaning the house, preparing for moms return.

Trying to decide my next big move...  I've spent the last five years hiding from friends and family completely in pain from someone I thought was incredible, and I was wrong.

Still scared to let anyone in, still being a bit dumb about finances, weight, and diabetes, because I'm still scared to live this life...

Letting down your guard and letting someone in can be tough...  After giving it a try again, I'm not sure I ever want to do out again.

I want to live, I want to smile, I want to be alive again, but I'm starting to think it is best to travel this life alone...

Exhausted

I think I've finally come to the end, where I cannot take it any more.  I've tried, and I've tried, and have realized, I'm just not good enough...  I have given everything I've had, and it just wasn't good enough.

Its time to begin being alone.  I'm tired of the pain.  I watch others go from relationship to relationship, always picking themselves up and moving on.

But when you finally feel you've found that right person, and you think you've really found that one person to spend the rest of your life with.....  And you were wrong.  It's time to just give up.  I believe I'm to that point.

I'm very, very tired of the roller coaster, to the point my heart wants to explode.  Being alone is much easier.  No one to hurt you, no one to make you happy one day and sad the next.  You just go about your life, enjoying what life has to offer.

Heart full of sadness...

For some reason today, all I can think about is the passing of my father last year.  Although he had Alzheimer's and had been in and out of knowing me for the last couple of years, up till the point where he couldn't eat, he was still cracking jokes and being funny.

I have come to the conclusion that Alzheimer's is probably one of THE worst diseases to have come down with.  To lose all your memories, happy and sad, to not recognize the people around you, is truly a horrible horrible thing.

I miss my dad.  I still remember about a year and a half ago, taking him around the block on my motorcycle.  The excitement, and a bit of fear he had, and the very big smile on his face, I will never forget.

I miss you pappy...  You'll always be in my heart.  And I promise to take care of mom forever...

Hello yeah, it's been a while... Not much, how bout you?

Been a while since I've posted.  Still spending my life living a lie, hoping that it changes soon.  I'm completely in love and hope it will come to fruition soon.

On a side note, have been dealing with a very nasty email blasting virus at work.  pretty sad, taking out our email and causing us to be blacklisted.  Still a major issue 2 weeks later.

Hoping things change at the other company, so I can return to happiness...

Mr. Murphy doing great, but very tired from being at doggie day care.  I THINK he's having fun there...

Got to run, not on vacation but everyone else is, so I must take care of the world....

A long day...

Well we shall she if she is successful with her quest to bring her relationship back to life, without me....

As vague as that is, I return too being alone again....  Sadly....

Been good hitting the gym, and listening to jillian now. I love her!