It's been a while.... Not much, how bout You?

I haven't been great at keeping my blog up to date, but I will try.

Lots have changed in the last 6 months, all for the spectacular.  Love, co-existence, Audi, New College for Ty.  Lots going on.

Had my first real vacation, although only a few days, it had been years.  We went to Quebec for Winter Carnival, and although was quite freezing, was an incredibly fun time, with lots of sights and sounds!  I am so glad we were able to be part of it!

Work is moving to Keene, hopefully I'll still have a job after we transition, but who knows.  I am keeping my ear to the ground to be safe.

Tyler has started school at UNH Manchester, and seems to be liking it better than NCC.

I was sick when we got  back from Quebec, and sadly Deb is now too, hopefully she'll recover soon and we can get back to a non-sick life.  :)

Nanna got the chance to visit her sister in Florida, and had a great time, although Mr. Murphy missed her terribly, and was all whiny when I dropped him off this morning, he was very happy.

Lots else going on, but I'll try to write every other day or something.  No promises, since I'm pretty busy during this move, but I will try my best.

Au revoir!

Let's Get it Started!!!!

Still alive...  Still Kicking.

Time to get MY ASS into gear.  Got a new home, new girl, new car.  Time to get a NEW ME.

How to start?  First off, stop eating everything in sight because, well, your bored.  Yeah, lets get past THAT.

Food wise, start eating healthier.

Workout wise, Come up with a better plan.

Sunday - Gym, start with 15 on elliptical to warm up.  Do circuit to get body ready for the week.
Monday - Gym, Warm up elliptical.  Legs.
Tuesday - Tennis
Wednesday - Gym, Warm up elliptical.  Upper body.
Thursday - Tennis or basketball.
Friday - Gym, Warm up elliptical, full circuit

Saturday - Off, enjoy the day, work around the house, do something fun with beautiful girlfriend.  :)

Tuesday's gone with the wind....

Got up at 1 this morning thinking it was 5. Oops

Played tennis with deb this morning, and actually had a great time even though I lost. :-)

Lunch at Harlow's today, it was good to see Bella back, and ready to start school come January. I like when I can influence people in the right direction.

Looking forward to going home tonight and seeing deb, :-)

Back in the High Life again....

Feel like blogging again.  Life seems to be going well so far...

Finally got Tyler a new vehicle, hopefully it will last him for a very long time.

Found myself full of energy last weekend, and got quite a bit done on Sunday.  Did a bunch of yard work for mom, with a ton more to go.  Luckily I have the new trusty dusty Gas Powered Hedge Trimmer, Yeah!

Saturday Deb and I headed to Greenland to talk to the Lang Landscapers about a patio for her.  The folks were really nice, and really like Deb.  Should look great when they are done.

After that we went into Portsmouth, which was awesome, having a Wonderful lunch on Old Ferry Landing, then walking around Portsmouth a bit.  Took Deb to Marco Polo or whatever it is called, and I got a cool car freshener for Tyler.  It is the front of a VW Bus, since he loves them so much.

More to come, I'll try to keep up better with my postings.

Happy Hump Day

It's Wednesday!  Happy Hump Day!  :-)

Played Tennis this morning, was an excellent workout!  We had a lot of fun!  Legs burning a little, which is always a good sign.  I miss playing tennis a lot, always a great, fun workout!

All seeems to be going well with life in general.  Ready for Life, part 2.  :-)  Got REAL lucky yesterday with the truck, Nate was able to get it to pass its emissions test, so after the ball joints are repaired today, the only thing left is a couple of tires (Unless they forget) and I'll be good to go!!!

Then hopefully around Sept, I can start looking for a new car.  Realized I've done a great job at getting my debt down, so that is making me feel pretty good!

Enough for today...  Enjoy the beautiful day everyone!!!!  Awesome Ride in this morning!!!!

Weight weight go away.... Come back... NEVER...

It's Sunday, the day after spring our clocks ahead.  The good news was at I think 6?  Or 6:30 or 5:30, I walked the dog and it was light out.  That made me feel good.

As I've grown older, I have been unable to deal with the shorter days in the winter, I don't mind the snow so much, although it IS detrimental to motorcycle riding, it is the lack of sunlight that truly depresses me.

So as the last week of early sunlight had me happy, knowing it wasn't completely going away made me feel pretty good.

I've spent the last couple of days working outside, trimming tree's, and basic yard work.  It is nice to be out and able to do these things.

On to todays topic. Weight.  I need to lose.  A lot.  I'm weighing in at 254 as of last week.  Part of the problem is being good with my insulin, causing my weight to go up a bit, and of course the other problem is the amount of calories I'm consuming every day.

It's almost like I feel, OH NO BIG deal if I eat this or that, I'll compensate with insulin or I'll go on the elliptical a little longer, or I won't eat something else.  Most of those times, I forget the insulin, never go to the gym and never stop eating.

I can feel myself outside my body looking in going DUDE!!!!  But my body not listening till it has finally sucked down the ever important piece of food I was cramming into my mouth...

I want the weight gone.  I want to be healthy.  I want to be OFF THIS ROLLERCOASTER of a life.  Deep down I am incredibly unhappy with my life, and know I need to change.  I'm tired of being in a strange limbo, on this roller coast going up and down up and down...

Well....  went to walmart and picked up a battery charger, think the motorcycle's battery might be on the way out.  Seems to happen almost every year.  A SMART man would disconnect it for the winter.  I am not a smart man.

Signing off, AppleTV update complete.  :)

Good morning yesterday...

Saturday night, kicking back, watching bones.

Busy day, lots of yard work done.. Supposed to be very warm on Monday so bike ride to work! :-)

Thinking a lot today, sorting life out. Ready to move on, feeling like I'm stuck.

Back to bones.. :-)

Google Privacy....

So today, marks the day that google changes its privacy policy....  Funny, the world did not blow up as seemed predicted by every journalist in the free world.  :)

Here is the key....  If you allow a company like google to be your mail, documents, social network, search engine, ALL for free, why not let them use your information to help better your experience?

I mean, seriously, I have NOTHING to hide, and if I did, I'm pretty sure I'm NOT going to post it anywhere on GOOGLE!  :)

Come folks, the world will be OK, and everytime I go into gmail, I'll know that google's computers are going through my mail to present me with an ad that will be geared towards something I apparently care about....

Very strange how scared people get over there data, which, if your putting it out there ANYWHERE, it is fair game.  Always remember that, nothing is secure, and as long as you remember that, you'll never have a privacy problem.  :)

Android and IOS

So, I'm enjoying seeing the new android phones coming out of Barcelona this week, very cool.  I'm just hoping they don't get out of control when it comes to the screen size thing.  My Bionic, to me, is just a bit TOO big.  I felt the Nexus S was the best, at 4....

I also heard that Apple may only sell 16gb ipad 3's from now on, because, of course they want EVERYTHING to go to the cloud....  Well, I'm sorry, until The Wireless Companies, Verizon/AT&T/Spring/TMobile get a friggin CLUE that 2gb of data for 30 bucks is STEALING, I won't even touch it.

I will stick to my android devices, with the very cool little microSD slot on the side, so I can put in my little 32gb card.  And move that card to my new device.  And the next one....  :)  I will probably never be a CLOUD person.  I like my data close to me....

Grand old time at work today, one of the servers is ready to completely explode....  Probably better do something about that, and QUICK...  :)

Hello sunday....

Cold and sunny day today, spent most of it in bed, giving tyler the living room.

Great day to watch bones reruns. :)

Cleaning the house, preparing for moms return.

Trying to decide my next big move...  I've spent the last five years hiding from friends and family completely in pain from someone I thought was incredible, and I was wrong.

Still scared to let anyone in, still being a bit dumb about finances, weight, and diabetes, because I'm still scared to live this life...

Letting down your guard and letting someone in can be tough...  After giving it a try again, I'm not sure I ever want to do out again.

I want to live, I want to smile, I want to be alive again, but I'm starting to think it is best to travel this life alone...

Exhausted

I think I've finally come to the end, where I cannot take it any more.  I've tried, and I've tried, and have realized, I'm just not good enough...  I have given everything I've had, and it just wasn't good enough.

Its time to begin being alone.  I'm tired of the pain.  I watch others go from relationship to relationship, always picking themselves up and moving on.

But when you finally feel you've found that right person, and you think you've really found that one person to spend the rest of your life with.....  And you were wrong.  It's time to just give up.  I believe I'm to that point.

I'm very, very tired of the roller coaster, to the point my heart wants to explode.  Being alone is much easier.  No one to hurt you, no one to make you happy one day and sad the next.  You just go about your life, enjoying what life has to offer.

Heart full of sadness...

For some reason today, all I can think about is the passing of my father last year.  Although he had Alzheimer's and had been in and out of knowing me for the last couple of years, up till the point where he couldn't eat, he was still cracking jokes and being funny.

I have come to the conclusion that Alzheimer's is probably one of THE worst diseases to have come down with.  To lose all your memories, happy and sad, to not recognize the people around you, is truly a horrible horrible thing.

I miss my dad.  I still remember about a year and a half ago, taking him around the block on my motorcycle.  The excitement, and a bit of fear he had, and the very big smile on his face, I will never forget.

I miss you pappy...  You'll always be in my heart.  And I promise to take care of mom forever...

Hello yeah, it's been a while... Not much, how bout you?

Been a while since I've posted.  Still spending my life living a lie, hoping that it changes soon.  I'm completely in love and hope it will come to fruition soon.

On a side note, have been dealing with a very nasty email blasting virus at work.  pretty sad, taking out our email and causing us to be blacklisted.  Still a major issue 2 weeks later.

Hoping things change at the other company, so I can return to happiness...

Mr. Murphy doing great, but very tired from being at doggie day care.  I THINK he's having fun there...

Got to run, not on vacation but everyone else is, so I must take care of the world....

A long day...

Well we shall she if she is successful with her quest to bring her relationship back to life, without me....

As vague as that is, I return too being alone again....  Sadly....

Been good hitting the gym, and listening to jillian now. I love her!

Okey Dokey Hokey, I'm still alive and kicking, making it past the 47 year old mark yesterday. Woo Hoo!  3 years from the 50's.

Probably can't listen to alternative music after 50 huh?  Have to eat lots of fiber?  Thank GOD it is 3 years away!

Working for a livin...  That's about it these days....

Boom.

Which way did he go?!

Sorry thought I'd post more, but.....  I GOT A JOB!  Woo Hoo!  Back to reality.

Promise to post more, also need to do a book review....  More to come!

BACK TO WORK!!!

Dreams I'll never see...

Last night was horrible, I woke around midnight after having a bad dream about my mom and Dad.  I remember them arguing, and then realizing my Dad its no longer with us.

It made me real sad, he passed away on June, and I still miss him.

So I've been up since midnight, and I'm a bit tired, need to go to the dump today, and hit the gym...

Let the blogging begin!

Howdy world, I promised to blog more and I will... :/)

Not that anyone is listening I still want to document 'Life'....

It's Thursday. Had a bad night Monday where I took my morning med at night and was awake all night long. Completely screwed up tuesday.

Yesterday still recovering from Tuesday, I basically chilled. Today I promised myself to get off my ass. :-)

Heading to the gym once my sinuses clear and then having lunch with deb.

Today is the expo at Hampshire hills, can't wait to see what they have, plus my favorite coffee will be there today. :-)

Off and running!

Book Review time!

I am going to be reviewing books.  Woo Hoo!  :)

Ummm... Oops

Ok, so I WAS going to post more, and from what I can tell, last Feb was my last post.

RIGHT around the time I lost my job.

Then the Dog got hit by a Jeep.

Then I moved.

Then My Dad died.

Then we did not win the govt contract we were supposed to win.

And now right back to February, without a job.  ugh.

Will update more, I kind of want some place I can just vent, and this seems like a great place.